Most of the time I write a post here I'm being snarky, or posting photos of a project, or whatever. I don't often delve into deeply personal stuff. For whatever reason, I have decided to stray from that path for a hot second. Then I'll go back to being a snarky eejit.
I recently wrote someone a letter, and I think that what I said really encompasses some important things that maybe someone else who reads this blog might need to see in print.
I don't know this, I just think maybe someone else might be at the same point in their life, and needs encouragement. Or maybe someone will read this who figured it out a long time ago, and they can just say "Yep.", either to themselves, or to me in the comments.
Here it is:
"The things that keep going around in my head are like this... I mind my own business, I work a full-time job that is stressful, I have a lot of things that I need to do around here, with the house and the gardens, and I take care of animals... I don't act aggressively toward anyone in my family, I don't call them to tell them upsetting things, I don't insult anyone or treat people badly - and yet somehow I always end up with people either doing that to me, or being angry with me, or trying to make me feel as if I've fallen short in some way.
Basically, I'm tired of it. I'm going to be 56 years old this December, and I've just reached that point in my life where I don't think it's wrong to want what pleases me.
I want a quiet life.
I want peacefulness.
I want beauty.
Art.
Music.
Books.
Writing.
I have come to the point where if people involve themselves in my life and they are fractious, grating, offensive, or irritating, I will peacefully remove myself from the situation. I don't wish anyone any harm, I just want people to leave me alone if they can't be pleasant and kind.
Of course, this is not to say that I won't talk to someone if they need my help. If they need to talk to me about their problems, or anything that I can help with, of course I realize that life is not all kitties and puppies, and things must be dealt with. I'm always open to that.
But aggressive political and personal agendas are just not my cup of tea, and I guess I've just come to the place in my life where I have realized that I don't owe anyone the sacrifice of my peace of mind.
I am not chasing people down if they don't call me. If they have something good to tell me, they have my phone number or email address. If I have something to say to them, I will call them. If they want to piss someone off, they can just call someone else.
I'm not laying down ultimatums, or taking action against anyone. I'm just being quiet, and peaceful, and staying away from situations that disrupt my groove.
Know what I mean?"